When I got up from prayer, which in my head was going to be a quick 15 minutes, I looked and it had been a 1/2 hour. Again, my very first thought was, "Oh that was too long and now I'm running late." Then, there it was, a strike in my heart saying, "How can it be too long for prayer and worship!!" I had just prayed to take every thought captive and about my mind in Power of a Praying Woman.
Then I sat down and read this from Oswald Chamber's devotional:
"And he pitched his tent, with Bethel on the west and Ail on the east and there he built an alter" (Genesis 12:8)
Worship is giving God the best that He has given you. Be careful what you do with the best you have. Whenever you get a blessing from God, give it back to Him as a love gift. Take time to meditate before God and offer the blessing back to Him in a deliberate act of worship. If you hoard a thing for yourself, it will turn into spiritual dry rot, as the manna did when it was hoarded. God will never let you hold a spiritual thing for yourself, it has to be given back to Him that He may make it a blessing to others.
Bethel is the symbol of communion with God; Ai is the symbol of the world. Abraham pitched his tent between the two. The measure of the worth of our public activity for God is the private profound communion we have with Him. Rush is wrong every time, there is always plenty of time to worship God. Quiet days with God may be a snare. We have to pitch our tents where we shall always have quiet times with God, however noisy our times with the world may be. There are not three stages in spiritual life – worship, waiting and work. Some of us go in jumps like spiritual frogs, we jump from worship to waiting, and from waiting to work. God’s idea is that the three should go together. They were always together in the life of Our Lord. He was unhasting and unresting. It is a discipline, we cannot get into it all at once.
This was one big, wet, sloppy Kiss from Heaven today! I wrote in my journal, "You are here LORD! You are here!"
Father, help me not to make time with you structured by my own agenda and all about getting it right or wrong! Help me just be... with just YOU!